To Make You Smile

Here are a few of my favourite things… just to make you smile today. I cannot resist a Pekingese. Growing up, we had one as a family pet and later on my parents got another who looked just like this. Looking at those buggy eyes and that protruding tongue makes […]

You Are The Heroine

When I was young, I felt like the heroine of every story I read. Now, older, disabled, living a life of routine, the distance between me and her seems wider. In a book I just finished, the heroine stole my heart and healed it a bit, too. I loved that […]

Going After The Pearl

Are you easily distracted? I am. One moment my gaze is fixed on The Goal and the next my head is swimming with paintings I want to create, clothing I’d like to wear, groceries I want to buy, relationships that need sorting out. Is there a Goal for this life […]

In Need

This broken moment. How did I end up here, like this? Where are YOU right now? What are the conversations and feelings and actions and reactions that brought you to where you are right now? There are tear stains on my face and I am tired. Usually I bounce through […]

Thankful: The Joy and Angst of It All

My house brings me a lot of joy. The glow, crackle and warmth of real fires were a great feature until an inspector shut us down. I like gardening, and this house has a big property – I have lots of room to play with plants and vegetables. More gardens […]

When Your World Falls Apart

What do you do when the world crashes down, horribly and unfairly, around you? Ginny Owens asks this question in her book Singing in the Dark. She notes: Instead of giving our pain over to God, we shut out the noise of what is wrong and broken. We turn to […]

For Women Only

Do you remember changing for gym with other girls in elementary school? Does a residue of trauma cling to you like it does me? I have a confession to make: I am used to hiding my body. Imperfection lurks beneath my clothes. My curves are not entirely symmetrical; my skin […]

It’s Finally Here

I always feel a little lost at Christmas. “Christmas!” You say, “The kids just went back to school! Mothers everywhere are weeping over their empty nests [me included]… Why are you bringing up Christmas?” Well, I’m thinking ahead. Did you know that Advent begins in November? That’s only two months […]

Safe

Last night I visited the hospital. A nurse, efficient and distant, prepped me. Those cardiac sensations – so familiar and dreaded – shook my insides. I’d been to this clinic before; the insertion of an IV and heart monitor was standard. This was the first time, though, that they would […]

The Farthest Reaches

“Do you feel the weight of your darkness – mean thoughts, unmentionable desires, things you’ve done that you pray no one discovers? Do you keep trying to do things differently and keep tripping up?” Ginny Owens asks these questions in her devotional Singing in the Dark. Ginny is blind and […]